Update- *kind of...

Ok- my life has been like a Roller Coaster lately. Well....maybe not my life...more like my emotions. I have been battleing my feelings about love and marriage...is love all you need? Will it be enough to get you through the battles of this world? I really dont think so. Its hard for me to say that because i have Loved someone...and realized that there has to be more. There has to be the same passion for spiritual warfare- not earthly warfare...if that doesn't make sense to you thats ok- What i guess i'm trying to say is this- Being EQUALLY YOKED doesn't just mean be the same religion...it means have the same passion for Life...for God and for GOD in your Life.... I almost changed my mind about Training- and about what God has called me to do. I let myself become distracted...its not worth it. None of these earthly, material things are worth it... Love isn't worth it...if it means not fulfilling God's purpose for my life. None of it will make sense...

on a lighter note- here are some pics of Aaron, Sam, and of the Zoo trip we took months ago.

Ok- this song is HILARIOUS! I heard it for the first time thanks to the BIGGERS family. :) We used to carpool to school when we all lived in KY and they played this song. Thanks Dr. Demento! :) The song is called TRANSFUSION.

Enjoy!

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Is it Just me?

Its been a few weeks now since the FOF retreat- maybe its only been 2 but it feels like 22. Its so refreshing to be among other salvationists...other future officers...other christians. its hard to return to the crowd that doesn't center itself on christ- that doesn't really care about where my spiritual life is going. now i'm not saying i'm surrounded by people that dont support me because that is not the case at all. I am blessed with an amazing support system...my family...and my close friends- and close friends of the family....its so amazing to me...i never realized how many people were thinking about me. now i'm pretty ordinary and dont really require that much attention- but to have someone come up to me and say "Janet, we've been praying for you...you've been on our minds..." it makes me feel so special. Loved. it makes me feel Loved...something that i wasn't expecting.

I want to be completely honest about something...i'm scared about what God has in store for me. I'm afraid about being accepted into training...and i'm petrified just thinking about what i'm going to do with an entire congregation- now i'm sure you, who are reading this, is saying..."ok- dont say these things out loud- you still have the psych test and you dont want to fail it- dont give them reasons for not letting you 'in' to training...." but i say this- Even though i am scared- i will go. even though i am afraid- i will go. and even though i am petrified- i will go- because i know that it is what God wants of me. Captain Roni's words ring clearly in my ear...louder now than ever... God wants me to come to the table with what i have- He knows that my gifts and talents are meant for his works- and his glory- and all the fear in the world couldn't stop me from that.

I know its nerves, and the devil, trying to make me feel like i can't do what God is asking of me...that its not fair. Satan is trying to tell me that i'm throwing away love, a relationship- for "nothing"? i know that i can't do this...alone...but i can do this with God and that makes me feel so much stronger...more confident...and happier than i have been in a very long time.

I'm excited- a bit nervous- ok- well shaking in my boots- :) *if i was wearing them i mean.... - but i know that my path is set and going any other way would be a waste of a life- and i'm not one for wasting....three cheers for salvation!!!

oh yeah, by the way- its my birthday on Tuesday. YAY 23! BEthy got me a new purse and season one of Gray's Anatomy. :) Man i love that show. :)

Thank you- to whoever may be reading this- for taking the time to know about me and what i'm going through. please say hi so that i can thank you again. it would really mean a lot to me.

goodnight.

This group is AmazinG! my new favorite CD- I love their song "Enough" and well...most of the songs on this cd are fantastic. :)

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Today-

Today has been a challenging day. I had a client who just outright refused a home visit- not knowing that with a visit she would receive 2 items of appliance instead of none...but she kept saying "no" not knowing of the blessings that were in store for her.

I wonder if thats how God sees us - he can see and knows the blessings he has in store for us- but are we open to them.

Please remember my dear friends Major Esther and Major Mel in your prayers. Major Mel has just been diagnosed with prostate cancer- he is having surgery on his hip in a couple of weeks and they have been working so hard on their ministry at the recovery center. I want as many people praying for these two as i can possible get.

I smell Banana Bread. :) well not because i'm weird or anything- :) I baked some so that samy and I could have a nice snack before bedtime. and breakfast of course. well also because i havn't baked anything in like...well...a week and i really wanted to bake something. :) I love banana bread. too bad we didn't have enough pecans though- i would have added a lot more...i'm sure it will be tasty though.

I am really excited about FOF next week- i hope i'm registered! I let my corps officer know (my dad) and he said he'd handle it- which i trust. :) i'm just really excited about it.

blessings to you and thank you for reading my thoughts. :)

God bless.

oh- and here are some pics of sammy and me.

Lake Junaluska Fun-

Hello and Good day! Today was the last day of Bible Conference at Good Ol' Lake Junaluska. I remember so many wonderful weeks here and anticipate so many more to come.

I saw Meagen, Danny and Nathan, Aaron, and Bethy. Now of course time with family never feels long enough but i am blessed to have spent time with them. Nathan is getting so big and he and Sammy are so cute together. they fought during lunch today though- Nathan was mad and was pulling on sam- meagen told nathan to "leave sammy alone" and sammy is saying "yeah, leave me alone"...hahaha- a 2 year old scolding a 1 year old. they sure do start young. :) i know that they will have loads of fun together.

sammy has been a little under the weather lately. he is coughing- and i give him medicine but he's fighting it every time. we are in mississippi right now in a very cute hotel- me, mom, dad, and sammy. i think they are watching the grammys...lol- anyway- i am ready to start work again on tuesday.

i'm not sure who reads this but for those of you that are reading this- you might have known (or not known) that i had talked about going to training within the next 2-3 years...well that was before this past week and devotions with captain ronnie robbins. :) i am now applying for next year 2007. we are opening the corps in new orleans in the first week of october so i'll be able to be a part of the new corps and all the programs my dad is planning on starting. i've got lots of great ideas for bible studies or devotions for work.

please keep New Orleans in your prayers. There are some really cool programs that my dad wants to start- and i'll talk about them once they've actually been started- but lots of good things! trust me! :)

thank you to whoever is reading my xanga- please reply with anything- anything at all. :) prayer requests- blessings that God has given to you- or just a quote- :) anything that is on your heart at this moment. :)

Go into the water and get your feet wet! Purify your life today- so that the Lord can do great wonders through you tomorrow.

goodnight.

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What a Fishy Day

This day has been a good day. We woke up early this morning and visited the New Orleans Aquarium. It was spectacular! I loved watching the fish swim around in their tanks...

We saw Sharks, Eels, Jellyfish, sea horses, turtles, an aligator (which creeped me out)...we saw parrots and an owl. Sammy watched a critter show on hissing cockroaches....ew! I thought they were going to bring out frogs or something...maybe a snake...but they brought out roaches and i had a FRONT row seat....gross...i gratefully gave that spot up to a few kids who were a lot more brave than i was.

Sammy really seemed to enjoy it. I think he was still a little young for most of it...i say that only because he pulled out his train whenever i wasnt looking. :)

we passed a lot of trains on the way to the aquarium...which sammy loved! That's his thing now...TRAINS!!

I started my first day at work this past week...on thursday actually. It was nice. I am doing social work at the recovery center. Everyone down here has a story...some are worse than others...but all of them need help. its so rewarding to be able to witness to them and help them at the same time with items that they need.

I feel different down here...in New Orleans. I'm not sure what it is...I think God is working on me...using the silence to knead my heart...using New Orleans and its people...does this make sense?